So I realize that I am fat, pleasantly plump, have a jelly belly, and I realize that I am not a supermodel in looks. But for some reason there are people that find me attractive (probably dropped too many times as a child but I digress) while others find me hmm lets just say not attractive at all. Oh, let me be fair and straight forward I have been called a whale, she-beast, bad example for my children (due to my rolls of chunkiness) and on the other side of the spectrum been told I was stunning, a goddess, sensual. It is all good either way I don't expect people to find me goregous and am surprised and flattered when they do. I am just trying to conprehend why people like spreading neagtivity like mist rising in a dark night.

When I joined this site I presumed it was for artists and people who enjoy art yet people decide to spew forth this negative energy worse then my son's pregancy's morning sickness (nice visual huh). I have some of my "modeling" pictures on said site and it isn't statements about lighting, composure, angles or themes, it is statements about my weight or looks. "I wouldn't hit that with a Mac trunk" now mind you upon seeing the author of these charms I would have liked to be hit by a mac trunk but that isn't the point. Point being is you don't like my looks ok fine I don't think i am much of a prize but why do you have to not only say someting about it but the mannerism of it is childish. It couldn't be "I don't get it" or hell "she isnt pretty" it is said purposely in an attempt to be hurtful. Honestly I am not hurt by comments about my looks and/or weight I am just tired of it. A place where one would presume you are in the search for what you or someone else finds as art has such occurances happening, and I am tired of hearing things about the face God/Goddess gave me and the body my children gave me. It makes me question if I even want to keep my photos here, not because of some idiot who has no tack but because there is enough bullshit and negativity in the world without added another small dose of it.